I just woke up from a dream. In the dream I was standing taking a bus work in my suit. But I have forgotten my shoes, so I was wearing slippers with suit.
Dreams have a way of reminding and showing you how exactly something feels like whilst experiencing it.
I remember looking at my work computer screen and that dreaded feeling of understanding someone's email while they're asking something from you.
All I remember feeling was wanting to go home. I didn't feel like working. Suddenly I find myself sending Ilyas off to a childcare, with who is presumably Alanur, my wife taking the shape of a vague person from a distant memory.
We played with ilyas for a bit while we're at the daycare, but the vibe of the daycare felt like a friend's house. It's a familiar place and feeling.
And then I remember trying to talk to my wife, let's go home. I don't feel like working today. It's a state of need, and longing to be with her, and our son. I feel like I missed them so much. Even though they're here with me in reality, it doesn't feel like she was.
As I was hoping she'd stop talking on the phone so we can all go home I just played with ilyas and was grateful he appreciates my presence.
Dreams have a peculiar way of showing your subconscious state of mind. It was a dreaded feeling of lost and longing, albeit what you're longing is right in front of you.
Alanur has been busy, and constantly tired. She starts the day with a displeasing feeling.
But alas, this world is a prison for the believers isn't it?